I went to a punker show last night and looked at some cute girl with fake red hair. I think that,s as far as I,ve ever gotten with a girl on a first date. We didn,t talk or introduce ourselves or anything but I looked at her a couple of times. It was a great success. She had a fat face which was fine by me. Her friends were pretty ugly though which makes me think that she is an idiot. No self-respecting young woman would ever be friends with a troupe of horrific ghouls. I tired to be an optimist about it and thought that maybe she was just putting in some face time with them for charity reasons but she appeared to enjoy their company so now I don't know what to think.
My Death Cad For Cutie cover band is supposed to play a show tonight up in the hills. I grew up in those very same hills. Every so often my dad will ask me if I am doing anything with my life and instead of telling him the truth I pretend that playing awful ,,music,, is something that matters to me and that I take it seriously. I don,t want to break his fat old heart and tell him that I am just sitting in a motionless pool of my own waste and loneliness instead of having a good job or going to school or forming meaningful relationships. Each time I see him he asks me if I have any performances coming up. I usually don,t so I am off the hook. Even when I do, I try not to mention it because I embarrass myself enough without him witnessing how terrible I am. I don,t want my dad thinking I am any gayer than he already does. I suggested he come tonight though because it,ll be near home and I might as well get his shame and disappointment out of the way. I,ve been feeling pretty okay lately, it would be good for me if he knocked me down a couple of pegs.
Chapelier Fou - 613
I,m worried that people that I knew in school will be there. It,s not that I don,t want to see them, I just don,t want to see them right now or for a very long time. I don,t want to pretend like I am friends with them now just like I had to do when I was younger. Maybe I,ll see some girl I went to school with that was cool and pretty back then and now she is fat but still kind of pretty and has drastically lowered her standards and I can spend the night looking at her without trying to approach her. That would be fine.
Another fun scenario could be that of the ugly duckling. The ugly, smart girl that loved horses and had hair that was way too long finally realized that a horse penis may feel good but can never provide the disrespect and insults that a man can so she has turned her eye from the stable to bedroom. She cut off that incredibly long, wispy hair and has come to understand that you don,t need to wear your aunt,s faded jeans everyday. Now she wears nice sweaters and smokes weed occasionally but isn,t really into it and listens to a lot of Brazilian funk from the seventies. That,s her thing. She knows a ton about Brazilian funk and has a few tapes in her car that she really want,s to play for you after the show. Then you two go to Taco Bell for a fourth meal but it,s already closed because it,s in the hills and it,s after Nine PM. So you just sit in her car in the parking lot of Taco Bell with weird funk playing quietly on a warped tape and neither of you want to make out but you do it anyway with the hope that moving your mouth will trick your brain into think that you are eating and you won,t feel so hungry anymore. Maybe that,ll happen tonight.
No comments:
Post a Comment